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i miss you
Dec. 20th, 2007 07:17 pmi'm posting this for the world to see, in hopes that fate might be cruising the internet tonight and happen to stumble upon my lj.
laurel halfhill i miss you so much. i found a bunch of old letters this morning and set them aside. i was thrilled! i always loved reading your words. it was notes from the wherehouse and letters from after you had moved. all day i was excited to get home and read them and reminisce, but strangely, i had quite the opposite reaction once i started on this task. i couldn't stop the tears from falling. it was this crazy overwhelming feeling of nostalgia, regret, hope, love and loss. my body didn't know what else to do but cry. i miss you so much that it hurts my heart a little bit. i still think of you often, i still speak of you to anyone who will listen. i tell them about this girl i knew who is the most enchanting person you'll ever meet. which is exactly what you are. i've always felt we were kindred spirits and re-reading the letters just makes it more concrete. you made me feel less alone. looking back, we really were in similar states of emotional disarray. yet, you were so much more self-aware at that time and i was still lost and confused inside my own head. when we started drifting, it scared me. i know you were unhappy and confused and i felt so desperately helpless that i couldn't do anything to make it better. but i kept hope in my heart that things would start to look up for you. i still do.
laurel, you are truly one of the best things to happen in my life. i am so happy and thankful that we met. thank god for the wherehouse despite all the crap we put up with toward the end. i hope we can reconnect one day. i love you with all my heart.
emma lee
laurel halfhill i miss you so much. i found a bunch of old letters this morning and set them aside. i was thrilled! i always loved reading your words. it was notes from the wherehouse and letters from after you had moved. all day i was excited to get home and read them and reminisce, but strangely, i had quite the opposite reaction once i started on this task. i couldn't stop the tears from falling. it was this crazy overwhelming feeling of nostalgia, regret, hope, love and loss. my body didn't know what else to do but cry. i miss you so much that it hurts my heart a little bit. i still think of you often, i still speak of you to anyone who will listen. i tell them about this girl i knew who is the most enchanting person you'll ever meet. which is exactly what you are. i've always felt we were kindred spirits and re-reading the letters just makes it more concrete. you made me feel less alone. looking back, we really were in similar states of emotional disarray. yet, you were so much more self-aware at that time and i was still lost and confused inside my own head. when we started drifting, it scared me. i know you were unhappy and confused and i felt so desperately helpless that i couldn't do anything to make it better. but i kept hope in my heart that things would start to look up for you. i still do.
laurel, you are truly one of the best things to happen in my life. i am so happy and thankful that we met. thank god for the wherehouse despite all the crap we put up with toward the end. i hope we can reconnect one day. i love you with all my heart.
emma lee
