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connie gave me a massage today. she said i had the tensest shoulders she had ever felt. tensest? is that a word? tightest maybe. most tense. she even yelled for her daughter to come see. "katie, you have to feel this!"

so i carry all my stress in my shoulders. i really want a massage. i'm gonna go get those therma care heating pad thingies tomorrow and wear them when i sleep. tonight i'm taking an excedrin pm (as prescribed by connie) and see if my muscles are more relaxed in the morning. i was also using a heating pad earlier tonight.

i hate it when it gets to this. when even massages, heating pads, and painkillers don'w seem to help. i shouldn't let it get to that point, but it just seems to happen. i'm not sure if the whole surgery fiasco caused it or not. but whatever. blah. and i get to go through it all again next week.. fuck.

anyone have strong hands? will you rub my shoulders?

the pm part of the excedrin is kicking in.

i fucking love this tori song.